Well I know there has to be something to do, but I am having trouble finding it.
Just sat here making a mess of turn 1 of a wargame Leslie's thinks is the greatest game in 10 years. I just don't seem to get it.
I can't seem to relate to any of his hobbies, and I'm soooo bored. I can't seem to think of anything 'I' want to do.
I've talked with actual girls, one in a gaming store, 'so how would YOU make a wargame that would interest a girl? I think I actually surprised her as she simply couldn't think of anything.
Sitting here waiting and waiting and waiting, do I get to be me, am I wanted as me. And all day long, sitting with almost nothing to do. I can't do laundry indefinitely.
My role gaming planning seems ok. But I have been dwelling on how it being ME that is at the table will impact my Sunday evening gaming time with the guys.
All I have, is I am so female feeling, with no prior actual experiences to base any of that on. I don't have the look (as of yet) and I have not made any reeeeeally overt statements backing me in a corner. All I have is the feeling. And my day has nothing that seems to be 'ME' in it.
It's Leslie that has built the models for decades.
It's Leslie that is the history and science nut.
I'm currently just watching anime and watching the day pass by.
I need some female clothing sooner or later, but shopping is not exactly a time absorbing activity I can do most of the day most of the week.
And if I was there yesterday, chances are what is there today will be the same.