I'm wondering if there r many others out there like me?
My life has become one part real world and MANY parts fantasy world. Here's what I mean:
For over 10 years I dressed in the closet in a vacuum. With fantasies of having real breasts and maybe becoming female one day. I dressed on occasion. But, I had a real life that consumed me. Filled with work, family and friends.
My dressing/fem fantasy was like a casual hobby in the back of my mind.
However, lately, I notice things have changed a lot! Ever since I came out on line 4+ years ago. Most of my friends r on line. Sherry has become an all consuming entity! Everything is about her! We go to conventions so she can go out! We're always shopping for things for her! I dress up all the time at home so she can show off! She's even become my girlfriend!
And, SHE'S NOT REAL! Simply an illusion!
My real friends r not as close as my on line ones. Because I can't discuss ANYTHING about my "hobby" with them! The same with my family. Only my friends here know and care about the things I do now!
Sometimes I'm scared about the fantasy world I'm living in! And, what it will lead to next! Do u ever feel that way?