Hey ladies,
Was asking for some advice. What happens when you are distracted from everything in your daily life because you can't stop thinking about how uncomfortable you are in your own skin? It never leaves my mind. I just think about being a feminine woman constantly. I admire women all day and can't stop thinking about how I want to be them. I look at their mannerisms, how relaxed they are, how happy they are and grow extremely envious and almost angry. I look at their outfits and just think about how they would look on me. When this happens, I get an intense feeling in my body that I can't even describe. I work in customer service so this makes my job extremely difficult. I don't know if I hate my body or not but I definitely don't care about how I dress as a male. I don't care about how I appear at all. I just feel like these thoughts are becoming crippling. It makes every day tasks almost impossible. I'm seeing a therapist right now and told her about my issues. I hope I didn't dig myself a hole I won't be able to get out of. I am scared, need help and don't know where to turn. I wish I was able to cry easily because I'm so incredibly confused and frustrated. What's an easy way to make yourself cry? Haha, I just need an emotional release.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
Also, I can't stop thinking about how I want my body to look feminine. I crave to have a curvy body like there's no tomorrow. Thinking about it makes me sick because I feel like I need it so bad. Just looking for some advice. How can I deal with these thoughts without going crazy?