Well I've finally come to the realization that I am not just a man in a dress!
Over the years I have seen many words banded about, to label our 'condition'.
TS this TG that etc. etc. to name but a few.
I thought I was just a good 'ol fashioned TV from a young age, but not now!
My mind tells me that there is a real women locked inside my male physiology, but she is happy to share both lives.
This leaves me in the situation where I'm neither totally one thing or another....transgendered I guess?
Now, as I am NOT totally a women trapped in a man's body, transitioning is neither a desire or option. What I need is an acceptable middle ground for who I want to truly be.
I think a visit to a therapist, for the first time in over 20 years, is on the cards. I'm just going around in a circle trying to find the exit.
This revelation has come about with the realization that I don't have to put on a pretty dress to feel feminine. Simply being in the right state of mind puts me there, what ever I'm wearing.
I no longer put a skirt on for an adolescent thrill, like I used to all those years ago. I put on a skirt because that is what my female self wants to wear.
Now don't get me wrong, I love this site, but lately it has felt strange to discuss CD'ing matters, as I no longer see myself as CD'er, if that makes sense? I feel I have no business poking my nose into a forum that is primarily aimed at cross-dressing men.
Well. Technically, I would still be called a cross-dresser as quoted on WIKI:
Cross-dressing is the act of wearing clothing and other accoutrements commonly associated with the opposite sex within a particular society
But as I have said, I don't need to be en-femme to feel feminine. When I wake-up, I am a physical male, but probably a TG person? So it doesn't really matter what I wear, apart from the fact that if I was in man-mode, wearing a leather mini-skirt, I'd be in drag and just having a laugh......like lot's of men do! But if I was in female-mode in hob-nail boots, jeans and braces, I'd still feel like a girl
I guess what I'm trying to say is perhaps I don't belong on this particular forum and need to find something more appropriate to my particular genetic coding.
Sally