at a social event last night i had too much alcohol and got too brave ,told one of my sisters all about tara , she was fantastic about it , had a few questions etc and we had a long talk . it felt great to confide in her after all these years. she promised she would tell no one else .
pity i did'nt stop there.
more alcohol and spurred on by the fact telling my sister went well i decided to tell my father , dunno why realy as i dont even like the guy . it was a disaster , ended up with a huge fight, my mam was crying , my wife flipped out and gave me a lot of crap for telling anyone and kept saying i was ruining our life . we got out of there and made our way home where she cried for ages while i sat alone full of fears and regret .
she doesnt want to talk to me at the moment and is in a foul humour .i feel so bad for hurting her . i'm praying my mam and dad keep the argument to themselves or it will have repercussions . i feel like such an idiot . my wife is probably right ,i probably am ruining our life .
i am a mess :-( .
