I have been a "closet" CD since well before I met my wife. After getting married, I gradually came out. It started with jokingly wearing her panties, to several years later, I have a drawer full of panties, bralettes, a bathing suit, some teddies and a few tops and skirts hanging in the closet. The climax to me "coming out" was me telling her that I do this because I felt, that as long as I can remember" that I should have been born a girl.
Sometimes I get mixed signals. For example, if she is shopping at Target and sees a pair of panties that I might like, she will buy some for her, and an extra pair for me. If she is shopping on line and sees a bralette that I might like, she will email me a link.
However, I'm always wanting more. I like to go "en femme" when the kids are not at the house. In this case, she never encourages it, but to me, just seems to "tolerate" it. I have asked her how she feels in the past and I get the generic response "whatever makes you happy".
If I want her to put makeup on me, I have to ask and if I get it, it is 50/50. My fantasy, is to come home from work and just get absolutely dominated and turned into a girl by her. I suggested it several times, but it never pans out. If I want to be Sasha, its up to me to make it happen and I always feel like its just "tolerated".
It is a weird position, because I don't really know where I stand. If I reference "sasha", she knows exactly who I am referring too (my feminine alter ego). I will most certainly not be allowed to go "en femme" in public, even if its in a place that nobody knows us (another fantasy of mine).
I don't really have a question, I guess I just feel the need to discuss it.