I shot myself yesterday so I could have an avatar to display. I first tried shooting myself with a bare midriff, but I noticed that it looked too flabby, so I covered it to hide that. I started doing the plank exercise lately (propping up horizontally on the forearms and toes while holding the body straight like a plank for a few minues, or seconds anyway), which I hope will eliminate the flab before long. I may also need to change my diet somewhat.
But my main homely feature is my face and I despair of ever being able to beautify it. It's too long and rather gaunt. Improving my diet may reduce the gauntness, but not the longness. Actually, I don't think I even look good as male. I'm embarrassed to be seen in public even dressed as a guy, just because of my face.
I've always been self-conscious. I was embarrassed about my looks in my grade school years, but I got better looking in high school. Until the last few years I looked okay, so I wasn't so self-conscious then, but now I feel about as bad as I used to feel in grade school, maybe worse.
I guess I'll have to try some kind of makeup, which I've never done so far. I'm kind of afraid to try makeup, because I heard a woman named Ann Martin, I think, on the radio in the 90s say that most makeup is made from road kill, at least in part, because it's cheap (That's what society has come down to, I think: use the cheapest junk available for ingredients and charge outrageous prices for the processed final product, like with the junk food industry, drug industry, etc). And other sources, like Dr. Mercola, I think, warn of toxic ingredients in many such products.
Are there suppliers of organic makeup or cosmetics? I guess I'll do a net search on that. Anyway, what's the best cheap makeup to use? Is it possible to make a long face look shorter? Do you have to wear a big wig? I don't have any wigs yet. My nose is too big too. Ug. But my cheeks being too gaunt are the main problem. I was wondering if the breast enhancement procedure could fatten up the cheeks a bit too. I suppose sunglasses might help. Are there beauticians who help CDs? I guess I should try to talk to some, if I can afford it.
Thank you for listening or sharing.