I can so relate--(as I stated in another thread).
The Big Tough Guy....Yes.yes, I too worrried about this..
To make this short-I will split this in two--
#1--Most of us don't realise at the time that is is right and proper to let anyone we are serious with in on just whom we are inside and out. As we of course would wish to know the 20/20 about our partner--Not be wooow wth?
#2--The big tough Guy...This you will always be--As you say you are that part of you does not diminish by what you do at times--
This fear is Ego--When I really looked deep into me--I was actually (worried) how people would view me---As This at the time was my steering mech of how I would see mysellf---
I rightly rid this ego part of me to the best of my ability. Trust me it never goes ez-
Once I knew whom I was and was quite comfy with this---I stopped the insanity of getting my self image from others--
I am-You are we all are who and what we think--Not what our parents think mates, nor partners--Our identity all identity belongs to the person.
We were all programmed to see ((so called normal)) from those around us whom gauged ((normal) as what society is doing-Sigh!
"Now as I see it society is sick today---So I dunno if in those terms I would wish to be a well adjusted person"----
The quote stolen from==
“It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.”
― Jiddu Krishnamurti