Last night I finally had a few hours to dress, my wife had bought me a red dress for X-mas and I was dying to try it on. This morning I woke up and was setting on the edge of my bed for a few moments and just staring in the air, my wife turned to me and asked me what I was in such deep thought about, I told her nothing and she wanted to know. I told her I really enjoyed my Maria time last night and I was thinking that I won't have a chance again for another few weeks and that upsets me a little. I don't ask for much just a few hours. She said are you kidding me instead of thinking about your health or your bills or anything else that's what your thinking about. I told her it's hard to except when you loving doing something so much and you have to wait or don't know when the next time will be is a little hard. She said Maria is far more complicated then we think. I told her if only she knew. Anybody else have those deep thoughts and don't realize your just staring in the air about your crossdressing and there are much more important things you should be thinking about?