My appoligies to all about this rant but I need to vent a little....
Another year has passed and I am still no closer to being happy or even content with myself. For those that don't know me, there is ZERO chance of me being anything other than a "guy in a dress". Regardless of what I am inside.
As New Years comes again my thoughts turn once again to what I want to achieve this year. Problem is medical science has not progressed to the point where I could be accepted as the woman I am.
The depression, the feelings of anger and disgust towards myself, all are not great assets for leading a productive life. (Clarification I am NOT suicidal, I could never cause my family that much pain.)
But all this gets me to thinking WHY am I like this.
They say that in science you cannot prove a negative. I question if the same though applies to religion?
This is not about peoples beliefs, everyone is entitled to their own thoughts and beliefs. I have lived in catholic run colleges while at Uni so I have been shown a lot of the catholic faith, but I wonder if I am proof that God does not exist, or is different to what is taught.
God is supposed to be all powerful, all knowing, all merciful right? Well if that is the case, why would they condemn a female soul to live a life of pain in a male body?
Some people have told me that the cause of my pain is me, I'm a man and that is the end of it. But that does not change how I feel inside. All it really does is make me feel worse about myself. I guess it does for others in the same place.
What am I trying to say here.....I guess it comes down to this.
Does the fact that some people are born in the wrong body to match their gender count as proof that societies view of religion is flawed?
(Once again sorry about the long post, had to get it off my chest)