At this point I would definitely prefer not to have the desire to crossdress.Only because of all the problems it brings to my wife and myself.Because I do it in "secret" I really never have the chance to relax and enjoy dressing up,I just get to throw on a few bits,usually no makeup and have a quick w**k (I hope it's okay to say that) so it can leave me feeling a bit empty and unsatisfied.On the other hand if my wife suddenly did a complete U turn and wanted to turn me in to a girl WOO HOO!