To Tamara: Thank you for your appology.
To everyone esle, you are all entitled to your opinions, that's what makes this place so great. I have no reason to lie or make up stories. I think this forum is about the only place I can be honest with people about my cding. We are all in this crazy lifestyle together, so I have no bad feelings, and I wish everyone the best. We all struggle with this in some form or fashion.
I love you all whether you believe me or not.