It has been a while since I have posted here. Been meaning to get more active but haven't found time to hardly do anything. Since last post many things have changed for me and plan on making another post about these changes.
Right now I am facing something that is coming up this weekend. I live in Rural Kentucky and about 2 hours away in Lexington there is monthly meetings for cross dressers, transgender, etc etc. Seems to be very professional and in a good setting. They have meetings then go out on the town together.
I talked to my fiancé about going (she fully supports me with being a cross dresser). She agreed and thought it was a good idea. We might get to finally meet some like minded people within this area (other than each other we have no friends. We don't fit in at all here. Remember two hours country drive from Lexington). They have once a month meetings so I checked calendar yesterday and it is THIS Saturday night.
I am really nervous about going... I don't plan on dressing up for the event though wish had courage to do so. I never have talked to anyone other than my fiancé about my cross dressing and I don't even know how I would do with someone fully dressed with me knowing they are in same boat as I am. I fear the vast majority will be going through transitioning something I really don't relate to as I am pretty happy being a guy in a dress (making me odd person out). I would love to hear/learn about it but I am bit afraid I am going to be only person there who is happy as a guy nice a dress.
I also worry that I am going to feel a bit of culture shock personally. I have only in my life only seen one other cross dresser. Even though I am a cross dresser it will be different being around so many at once.
While my fiancé is accepting of all this it is also new to her too. She wants to come along and I want her to come along. I am afraid though this could have negative consequences within our relationship in terms of my personal (now almost 24/7) cross dressing. While she obviously does accept me to the extreme she has things I am yet to try that she said she may not like. A "I'll have to see it to actually see how I feel about this but try it so I can see" mindset.
The few reservations she had about the couple of things I have tried she ended up being fine with. Think only two left on her list left is a wig and shaving my legs. I already shave my feet and ankles so don't think she will care when finally do shave my legs. Also I don't need a wig since got nice long hair anyway to work with (and she helps me fix it up lol). I am worried though that this may somehow set up more restrictions and that is something I would like as few as possible of (as I am sure we all would like to enjoy). I feel this could be completely unfounded fear though.
So wondering if anyone has any advice/experience or anything that might have been in my position. I am thinking I "should" go and like I said a lot of positives may come out of it. Then again I am afraid I am going to just sit there like an idiot saying nothing. I also could wait a month and prepare myself. These meetings have been going on for I know for years so they aren't going anywhere. I figure I'll be as nervous though in a month about it as I am now...
So not sure what I should do... Any suggestions?