So Monday I finally had my first appointment with an endocrinologist about HRT. A long awaited event. Started the medication on Tuesday. I should be elated except that Sunday night I was asked to tender my resignation because of the HRT. I've always known that this would happen sooner or later. Some of my family members that have known about my crossdressing for years are very against me now. And I know that sometime in the near future separation is coming for my marriage.
I have often heard that transition was expensive and not just in money, and I've known that much of this would likely happen to me. It's just a little bit different knowing that it might be coming and actually facing the events. It does cause me to question, just a little bit, what I am doing. In spite of the cost I know I cannot go back to who I was, what I was just a short time ago.
Some people say they're concerned about the pain that's ahead for me if I continue on this path. What they don't know about, or perhaps they don't care about the lifetime of pain and misery that I've dealt with for an entire lifetime. I can't go back to that, I must continue this path towards transition and possible SRS.
In the end family and acquaintances will either accept my new reality or not. I won't force the issue. If they won't accept I guess it's their loss. It will not deter me from pursuing life for myself. It just tempers my joy somewhat.
I'm sure many others on this forum have similar experiences.
AnitaH