After I left my last therapy session I felt kind of down. I am experiencing an intense desire to be female. The Cross dressing is not doing it for me as it once did, and more over the Lolita and sissy dresses are beginning to feel wrong for me.
What I want at this moment is to be able to dress in conventional women’s clothes and look passible. The truth is I am feeling that I would much happier if I was a female. The question my therapist asked me is “how do you feel when dressed” and my answer is I feel “Right”.
I am looking deep into myself and trying to be honest with myself, and the truth is I want to be a woman, not a cross dresser, or anything else. This knowledge is new to me and I have a difficult time processing it and what it will mean for my future.
My wife has no idea how I really feel and this is eating me up inside.