Dark place.
This is my first time doubting who I am and what I am doing. Geez i hope this isn't a common occurrence. Last night things just went off track totally. The make up went well, I can say that much. The rest of the night it was like I was in a place I should not be. I was angry from from the start. Little things upset me terribly (like people I know referring to me as "he" and "Him'...I wasn't happy with my look either but I didn't think I looked THAT bad). By the end of the night I just wanted to go home, curl up and mope. I kept asking myself "is this all worth it?"
It feels wrong for me when I was so confident. It was like a someone pulled the floor out from under me. No real reason. My friends were still friendly (minus the slips of gender words).
Is this a common occurrence? If so, I need to know so I can plan ahead on those days.