Hi all.
As I sit here I wonder about a big decision.
I am embarking on a journey of big change, one baby step at a time, and I contemplate who and when to inform in my Family of my decision to transition.
I had just gotten back in touch with my Family back at the end of last October after not being in touch with any of them since March of 2001.
About the time I realized that I am trans this year, my Father went in for a PET scan for some problems in his back. The scan revealed a mass in his lungs.
Last week Wednesday he went in for surgery and it was discovered that the mass is cancerous and the Doctors will be starting him on therapy to help try and get rid of the cancer.
I am an emotional wreck right now with some of my own personal issues and worry about my Dad, but I am holding it together with the help of my Wife and my insane schedule at work for this Memorial day weekend.
All my life, my parents have told me how much they wanted their first born to be a son and that I was such a blessing to that wish. I know my parents love me for more than that, but that is a big part of how they feel as well.
My quandary of honesty and kindness is this. Do I tell my Father no matter what, or do I not tell him so he has his son to the end.
It's a big decision and I know that if I do tell him it will be received well and with love and support.
But I do love my Father and letting someone go with that kind of joy is a big kindness as well.
Thank you all for listening.
With Love and Lots of Hugs,
Jamie