I know exactly how you feel! I can't say that I "hate" my male parts, but I can say that I am happy when I express myself as female. Yes, I live as male, meet everyone's expectations of what a male is (without being macho at all), but when I look in a mirror I see Sarah. I have accepted that because of my age, family, job, etc. etc. I will never transition. The best I can hope for is to express my inner identity as a woman whenever I can (through dressing or even just talking with others who accept and understand). I don't even know with certainty that I am TG, I just know how I feel.
