Sitting at home to night and thinking about the last two weeks being 24-7 as the excitement is settling down to reality and its not real different. My body has changed in the past 11 months and I'm happy with that. But there is a loss I'm feeling too. It's hard to wrap my head around but I have to. There is the juxtaposition of gender now with the woman in front and the man behind. Not an easy road to take, I'm not having second thoughts as I love being seen as a woman at least from my point of view. But what do you do with your history? Ok not well said but its hitting me tonight so I just felt like looking through the box if you know what I mean...