So, i know a few of you know my situation at home but ill just quickly share for those who dont. I have dressed off and on since i was about 13 (Im 31 now). Like a lot of people here, i kept it from my spouse for about 10 years before coming out to her. I was met with lots of resistance and rejection and things have been really hard. That was about 6 months ago. Roughly 2 months ago, my wife gave me an ultimatum about staying together as a family (we have 2 boys who are 6 and 9) and no longer crossdressing, or being on my own and getting to dress how i want. I chose to stay...which as we all know is just a ticking timebomb. Well its been two months and obviously nothing has changed with how i think or feel about dressing. I am considering going to therapy. I have found a few gender identity therapists within close proximity to where i live but God im nervous. I have never been to therapy in my life other than pre marital counseling and i dont really know what to expect. I also dont want to keep it from my wife but i dont really know how to approach her on this topic either. I dont want to do any couples therapy yet until ive done the individual thing for a while. Does anyone know if this sort of thing is covered under insurance? I dont really have money to see someone if its not covered. I just know things arent really getting better in my head and if anything, its just been getting worse. I kind of expected this but i also wanted to let my wife know i was willing to try. Ugh...