Last week I went to see my doctor with my letter in hand. I was very excited and my primary care was wonderful. He got me in to see an endocrinologist that morning. But as I found out it wasn’t the endocrinologist that handles almost all the transgender cases. At the end I was very frustrated but with the help of my primary I was able to get in to see the endocrinologist that I wanted to see and see was wonderful. So I’ve been on HRT for a week know, and I feel great. I feel so much calmer and more content and the GD is not as bad. I feel really good about moving forward. The fears I had about what the end result will be seemed to disappear, but I think that has a lot to do with the fact that I’m so happy about starting HRT. But I know that there are still some fears there as I felt some of them last night. I know I have a long road ahead but I also know that I’m so blessed as my family and friends are being very supportive of me. I was kidding with my wife last night and I told her they gave me the wrong pills they gave me the old woman pills I wanted the young woman pills, she just laughed and said you are a old woman. I have a good sense of humor and I plan on keeping it. My daughter and daughter in-law are having a good time with this they want to have a hair party, when I told my wife she said what am I chopped liver. So she texted my daughter and my daughter told her that she been a woman a long time and I’m just started and need the help.
I don’t know if I feel so much more content because of the HRT, or because I’m starting on my journey. It’s a little weird the GD was very bad and now it’s seems very managble, again I think it’s a combination of moving forward and the HRT. The worry’s I had about my hair, and my voice, and the way I might pass just don’t seem as important at least for right now. But we will see if that stays that way I hope so.
Hugs Janelle