Just some thoughts I decided to vent.
Back when I was in my teens, I used to think I want to be a girl, or I have a girl personality hiding in me. Now I'm in my twenties, and been doing serious crossdressing for about 8 months. I realized that was not what I want...No, I don't want to be a girl at all. Why did I fool myself for so long?
Suddenly I realized that such thoughts came from the internet. Yes, there is a hell lot of information out there, but it's mixed. There are all kinds of people under the transgender umbrella, just like the real world. Some feel they are born with a wrong body and some don't. But most of the time, people who are very serious about transition get to talk more than others, which is fine because they are the most experienced.
However, I get confused because I don't want to be a girl at all, a fact I didn't know then. But mixed information about transgender on the internet got me into "thinking" that I might have a "female personality" going inside me. I tried to call out the "girl" in me, but there was no response. There is simply nothing! I am just a normal guy, who happen to like having a makeover from time to time! Call it a hobby if you want.
In this sense I don't need a therapist because I have zero gender issues to talk about. I wonder how many people are like me though. I guess sometimes we think too much over it, which makes us forget that crossdressing itself is fun, without any gender issues a priori.