I was just making the bed & noticed 'his' smell has gone. I mean I had noticed it was changing when we cuddle or whatever. Now it's gone & I feel like I've been sucker punched.
This just really knocked me. I love who she is becoming so much, but these sorts of moments sends me back to grieving. I love my wife, but I also desperately miss my husband.
I know I'm allowed to have these feelings, but the guilt from these feelings makes it so much worse. I'm so thankful that she's not @ home tonight. I'm a mess & I hate making her feel bad when she has done nothing wrong. I guess there are always going to be good days & bad days.
As a famous Australian once said, "Such it life".