Hi everyone,
I'm new here, so here is my story! I, like most here, started experimenting with cross dressing in my teens. I started getting into reading transgender fiction around this time too.
I'm now 33 and been married happily for 5 years. I'm getting to the point now where I'm not sure I can keep it bottled up anymore. I want to explore my fem side and share this with my wife, but I feel like I've gone on so long now and never mentioned it, that she would feel a great betrayal of trust.
I do not dress currently, and have only very rarely worn a couple of my wife's things (guilt probably stops me). I explore my gender in other ways - currently by writing my own TG fiction.
I want to try and find the confidence to confide in her. I'm not the most masculine of males to start with, slim, a fairly fem face and when we're alone we use a similar sort of "fey" voice with each other, and even call each other by identical “gender-less” pet names. She certainly "wears the trousers" in our relationship, making most decisions and dealing with money etc.
Years ago, she noticed her underwear draw had been "rummaged" (in one of my very rare moments), and asked, jokingly, if I had been wearing her underwear. I laughed it off and said no. Last year she asked if I wanted to wear her tights under my trousers when I complained about the cold.
So, it is possible she either won't be that surprised, or knows something already. Anyway, the thought of disrupting an otherwise tranquil marriage fills me with great anxiety. We rarely argue, ever.
Now, I'm not unhappy as a male, I don't hate my body and I do enjoy my male role. But I do want to explore and share the feminine side of me as well, more than I do. Just to not have to hide any part of myself from the woman I love.
I would be very grateful for any advice from people who have gone through similar.
Thank you,
Jessica xx