Having experienced so many different stages of crossdressing, from dressing nightly to sneak out of the house, to dressing occasionally as the mood stuck me, to going months between sessions, to dressing 24/7 for a few months, I am always amazed with the sense of calm I get when I can be Gina.
After spending four days straight as Gina over the long weekend, I had to go back to my drab life again until Friday. I came home from work, cleaned and shaved up then Gina came back. I had a night out with friends and although I feel great excitement when I first step out the door to see what will happen, I always feel this calming effect as the night goes on.
Saturday I got up early, shaved and put on some light makeup, mascara, and lip gloss and threw on some shorts and a t-shirt with one of my longer shag wigs. I hit the beach early and must have walked 4-5 miles on the beach. No one even seemed to notice as we all appeared absorbed in the natural beauty of the ocean. I came home and didn't have any apprehension about who might see me or stop to talk. The sense of peace has been with me the whole weekend, but is starting to fade as I prepare to go back to my drab world.
I wonder why I don't have the same sense of peace in guy mode?