Well, I working my way back. I have been off the net for a few months because of a deployment and then a short notice move. It feels good to be back but I am still adjusting.
Today is my first day getting to dress again. I have a supporting SO but I was really nervous of showing her this side again. I have been dying to dress since I got back but every time I had the opportunity I felt those old fears of nonacceptance creep back in. My SO made it clear she was still accepting, even buying me a new shirt but it took a while before I could show myself to her. I did wear my hair in private but I have felt such fear in exposing myself to her again and I do not know why. She has always been accepting and was very happy to see me tonight.
Baby steps I guess.
Danni