Up or Down?

[Frédérique]

right or left (?)

Look or feel?

Since we’re (apparently) exploring opposites, polar or otherwise, I’m inspired to ask this simple question: Is your MtF crossdressing waxing (strengthening) or waning (diminishing)?

I encounter all types on this forum. Some people are becoming more and more like girls, or women, every day, while others are gradually withdrawing, back from whence they came. Still others have reached their level, or plateau, and they are staying right where they are, thank you. I may be one of those stationary girls who is satisfied, has accepted her “self,” and is admiring the view from on high, but I still watch the ones who continue to climb or descend, according to their own desires or circumstances…

I would just like to stay where I am, and not go backwards. I’m not “equipped” to climb higher, either, but I do explore horizontally. I must be ever vigilant to NOT let my crossdressing go on the wane, and this requires a little bit of maintenance, such as regular participation on this site. I’m not going to go any further, unless somebody wishes to take my hand and lead me along, but I might encourage that person to sit with me a while and just enjoy being crossdressed …

So, are you going UP or DOWN? Please wave to me as you go by, OK?

[Beverley Sims]

Frédérique,
Mine is static.
I would be interested in those that find that their activity is waning, and why?

[lisa_cd]

My desire to cross dress, to be femme...strengthens now with every breath I take. I want, so badly, to look better and better and better. I am completely comfortable with it, and it's a very important part of my life now...

Waving at you!

[Jaymees22]

Waning or gaining? I think lately I'm on the upswing with it. As good as I felt when I started dressing again a year and a half ago, maybe even more. I think I've found my style or groove finally and I'm very happy to stay at this level I'm at right now, a part time crossdresser.

[suzy1]

I am Suzy. I was born as Suzy and I will die as Suzy. I am transgender.
How can someone like me go up or down?

[Dalva]

I am Suzy. I was born as Suzy and I will die as Suzy. I am transgender.
How can someone like me go up or down?

Can I answer your question in private Suzi?

Sorry, I get a bit naughty sometimes.

To answer your question Frederique, I am always moving forward. When I think of where I once was and where I am still moving towards, there is no reason to stop. I still have much to accomplish....and loving every minute.

[Stephanie47]

I'm finding that currently I am waning a little. Before I retired I looked forward to taking a vacation day while my wife worked. Even better was when she would go visit on daughter in the mid west for seven to ten days. Utter bliss. Hang the dresses in the closet. Put the bras and panties in the draw. Line up the shoes under the foot of the bed. Dress 24/7 for a week. Great. After retirement started my pent up desires had me dressing every day my wife went to work. I enjoyed it immensely. I got a lot of domestic chores done, but, neglected too many 'manly' chores in the front yard.

Now? Since the summer ended and I can dress at will again- no desire to do it every day. ???? I think my waning is due to acquiring one too many aches and pains. Also, it's been raining too darn much!

[suzy1]

Can I answer your question in private Suzi?

Sorry, I get a bit naughty sometimes.

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I read that twice, then the penny dropped. [I am not the brightest girl in the world]

That's naughty!

[Milli Montanari]

Waxing definitely, especially my back! Actually I'm on a slow progression upward with an occasional downward slide. In addition, as I get older, my "don't give a shit what other people think" factor goes up.

[Princess Chantal]

Love the analogy, as it is similiar to my friend Rhaina's "park bench". When I first engaged into the local transgender community, I had climbed vigorously with my head down like a rhino (perhaps following others of the herd) for a few years. Once I lifted my head and look around at where I was, I found myself at a distance where I just couldn't enjoy the surroundings. So I made the jaunt back (somewhat against the flow) with my head up and eyes open until I found this enjoyable plateau that I am at now.

[carhill2mn]

Mine stays about the same. If anything, it is increasing.

[TGMarla]

Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.

[ArleneRaquel]

My has been 24/7 for over 9 years years now so I guess the only way is down. Fat chance of that IMO.

[NicoleScott]

I'm happy to see the topic is CDing. From the title, I thought it might be about quarks.
I am where I have been for a pretty long time, and plan on staying right here.

[Kate Simmons]

Many of us reach a comfort level with ourselves and the idea of "losing or gaining" is kind of moot because our stance is driven by personal choice. In that sense it just is what it is, nothing more or less, especially if there is nothing to prove.

[Dianne S]

I'm happy to see the topic is CDing. From the title, I thought it might be about quarks.

That would be "strange", no?

Anyway, to answer the original question: My desire to CD is on the upswing, mostly because I have more opportunity now than before.

[steftoday]

Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.

Im so sorry Marla... I know how frustrating that can be.

Waxing. Definitely waxing.

[cdtraveler]

Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.

I find this describes me too TGMarla. For the others who've commented you all look lovely and I hope you are as satisfied and comfortable as possible!
Amanda

[UNDERDRESSER]

Umm,..both?

While I am spending more time wearing items from the ladies department, can't remember the last time I wore men's underwear, and I spend most evenings in skirts, I am not thinking of it as crossdressing so much. I am not trying to look like a female, or even that feminine. I have come to realise that this is how I want to be. Wearing this stuff says something about how I want to be recognized. I want to display a bit, I want to show that I'm not particularly macho, I want to wear colourful clothing that shows off my body. I also find skirts vastly more comfortable than pants or shorts.

This is how I am, and I think there are many more males out there like me, but like me, they are scared of the comments, so they don't dress like this. I don't believe that there is anything wrong with this, or even that it's far from the average male attitude, but we are programmed to see it as different, therefore it must be wrong, deviant, taboo.

It is my hope to make a little difference in my corner of the world.

[Brooklyn]

Definitely waxing... Over the past year, I have made more of a conscious effort to integrate my masculine and feminine personalities to level things off, hopefully. Wish me luck!

[Michelle789]

I'm definitely going more girly. I think when we go through a major stressful time, crisis, setback, or change in circumstances, it tends to cause us to either wax or wane. I had basically plateaued for the past 11 years, thinking I was satisfied with where I was. Then life started to get more demanding, and I started to experience more pressure to be a man and to date and get married, and then I lost my job. I find the more pressure I'm under to be a man, the more girly I get, and wanting to take things to the next level.

Sadly, life has a way of throwing off our balance and can force us to re-evaluate ourselves, and can throw our gender dysphoria into overdrive. I'm definitely experiencing this.

I think if we wane due to such a change in circumstances, it'll come back with a vengeance and we'll wax even more when the opportunity comes.

Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.

One day the desire to dress will come back with a vengeance, it always does, and you'll just say enough, I'm dressing no matter what.

[Abbygirl]

I am definitely waxing even after all these years. In fact I'm always looking for a new way to feel girly. more! more!! more!!!

[kimdl93]

I'm gradually gaining altitude at a fairly steady climb rate.

[Lynn Marie]

I'm gradually gaining altitude at a fairly steady climb rate.

Me too. After a somewhat bouncy takeoff, I've been able to establish a fairly steady rate of climb also.

[robindee36]

Getting better every day in every way. Onward and upward

Hugs, Robin