I'm still trying to sort it out but here we go: happy, sexy, submissive, relaxed, excited (to go out as Victoriana but don't go out), feminine (obviously), myself (sort of), sometimes horny (<---was that allowed? lol), taboo, and!!!! guilty (like why am I doing this, seriously?!?!), low self esteem (usually after), over critical (is this the best I can look sort of thing...?), less of a man (obviously, but afterwards too), confused, and kind of stuck. Yeah, and after I dress...a "hot mess" as I heard someone say on RuPauls drag race. Wanting to quit, blah blah. But overall, it is fun while it lasts!
