Sometimes you hear people that have decided to de-transition, even post-ops.
Usually it seems to have to do with them not being happy once they transitioned or it was not what they expected. Like it did not fix what really needed to be fixed within them.
It kind of gives me some pause, because I am sure that earlier in their transition they were just as sure it was the right thing to do, and driven to do it, like most all of us are. But they ended up being wrong? It was all a mistake?
Last night reading one of these de-transition stories made me ask myself if I have been wrong, have I somehow convinced myself of something that really was not the right thing to do? How do you really know? If I was wrong, could I be open to that and accept it?
The benefits of transitioning have been very real for me - I don't experience the intense depression, anxiety, and self loathing that seemed centered around my gender anywhere near like I used to. I still have plenty of issues, I'm not always happy happy joy joy I'm a girl now, life is still life. Its just that its a lot better then it was and I simply function better and feel okay with me now. And I have not even had any surgeries yet.
Looking at those positives I have experienced it seems transitioning was the right path for me to go down. So why wasn't it for these people that go back? Why didn't they experience positives from transitioning the way most (I hope) do?