This kind if straddles the line between CD and Trans forums, but that's okay- I really have no idea where I belong anymore!
So to the point: what do you girls do when you just can't take it anymore? You dress a little, but circumstances don't really allow you to dress as much. Or you dress as much as you want but you really REALLY want to to not just dress anymore but want to start thinking about what that next step would be. You maybe wax and groom, but there's some pesky parts that you know you want/don't want but don't know how to start that process.
All these scenarios describe some sort of of tipping point where your head is about to explode.
Me - I'm sitting on the train and I hear two women having a conversation. Just a conversation! All I want is to not be a man - I want to be a woman - and say goodbye to all the lies and guy things. I know for a fact that I can barely take another day having to shave this awful beard, look at this awful body with hair everywhere where there shouldn't be.
My brother in law, son of two psychiatrists, once said that trans people are just unhappy people. Meaning that their unhappy first, and the "trans" part is a delusion - to mask the unhappiness they feel. It's just an outlet.
I reject that - I'm in pain and wished I was a girl from an early age. I prayed to my Catholic god to change me every night - well you know how fairy tales go.
Okay - back to the main question:
How do you deal? How do you decide to throw it all out the window and make a change?
Darla