In my history of cross-dressing, a couple of the fantasies that played a big role in my life as a secret cross-dresser, was the idea that I could have a much better and more satisfying experience cross-dressed, if I could keep it up for a whole day. From that fantasy, I often added, stay cross-dressed for a whole weekend. Then, I even dared to fantasize about being able to cross-dress for a whole week. Did this mean that I was moving towards the idea that I wanted to feel like a real women, by cross-dressing for long enough to start to forget that I was a man? Was it just a matter of intensifying the feeling that I was just like a woman? Did I really have, lurking in my unconscious the idea that I really felt I was a woman, because I wanted to be a woman, perhaps, to be one only as long as it would be practical, in what was otherwise a man's life?
Some psychologists used to say you could tell if a man wanted to feel that he was a woman, or feel just like a woman, which was different from one who just wanted to masquerade as a woman, by whether of not, as a cross-dresser he wanted to wear all the underwear of a woman, right next to his own skin, or wear male underwear under his women's clothes instead of women's underwear.
How long would you like to have to dress as woman, in the ideal situation: an hour, a day, a weekend, a week, a month or a year? Is that connected with wanting to feel like a woman or wanting to feel you really are, a woman, suspending your understanding for the time, that you really are a man?
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