Since my teenage years I have always fantasised about being a woman. I managed to get hold of a girlfriends lipstick and try it on and it felt good even amazing but that is not all I want to share with you all its the fantasy that I would like to share.
I have always fantasised about being a proper woman with all the bits in the right places and in my fantasy I am drop dead gorgeous sexy and popular. Part of that fantasy involves being intimate with a man and get this I dont find men in the least bit attractive I have always liked women. I thought that having these fantasies without fancying guys must mean that I am BI Sexual. I have some BI friends and have asked them some questions about attraction and they have told me that they find both men and women attractive.
This I find confusing for many years I thought I was gay for wanting to dress like a girl and having this running through my head but I have been happily married now for 18 years. my wife knows about my CDing and encourages me to be myself and go with it and with that she has made me the happiest girl in the world. I did try gay sex many years ago and it did not float my boat but I still have the fantasy of being a real woman in a sexual encounter with a guy. My wife knows about this and she tells me not to label myself and just be me the man she loves. For years now I have hated who I am and how I have felt and with this forum and my wifes help I am finally getting comfortable with myself. Are there any cross dressers out there who consider themselves straight that identify with my experiences in life or am I truly alone?
yours faithfully Andrea x