I am still closeted in my family setting. My wife has been away for 10 days and I have been in a pink fog for the whole time. I got my nails done (wife approves) got my hair done at a salon while totally dressed in skirt and heels. Hair was styled in obvious femme style, shag cut. Wife won't be too upset with the look. I have been out and about en femme and feel terrific. Now my SO is coming home and I need to put Jannis away for a while. My problem is I am already feeling depressed and kind of sick in the pit of my stomach. I really want to come out to her, but she has previously indicated she is not in high regard for CD and does not think I am a CDer. I need some kind of support to get through this. I live in a very conservative area and counseling is not easy to find for this situation. Please, let me know I am not alone with these feelings. Hugs.