The firs time I recall wearing anything feminine was age 7. It was panties and a dress and I loved the look and feel. However I had strong feelings of utter confusion because I thought that I was the only boy in the world who wanted to be more like a girl. As I grew older and started to realize that I wasn't alone, my feelings turned from confused to mixed. I'm now happily in a state of mixed feelings where I can enjoy both sides of my whole being.