You know those women...
Those women that love a CD, TV, TS, GID...etc., etc., etc.
Are we just a shield, a diversion, a front to make ya'll appear normal to your family's, to your employers or anyone else who wouldn't understand.
Is that all we are?
All we ever were?
'Cause I thought we were so much more.
You were Golden Hun...
You still are.
You witnessed where I came from and cared for me anyway.
How'd that happen?
Remember?
When we were so comfy, snuggled in our nighties watching our favorite shows.
Taking photos ('course I never knew how come) or when we just made breakfast and read the paper and all those thousands of things two people who care for one another do.
I don't understand how you could so easily just let me go...
Just toss me aside
After almost 40 years.
How you could let our intimate times just drift away on that warm summer morning, just 'cause I couldn't switch roles?
I never knew how little I meant to you.
I do now.
Still...
I adore you and I miss you so much Jim.
....and I have tried so very hard to understand.
Did you ever try half as hard to understand me?
In the end, I guess I just wasn't good enough.
Please don't make light of my words...
They are heartfelt.
I can't pour all I feel for the man and what we shared, all those years in a few simple lines.
I just hope he knows, he was well loved.
And I am so very sorry I couldn't be more to him.