I'm rather new to this... Literally. Anyways, for awhile i've wondered many things but one seems to stand out the most. Whilst the thought of transitioning to a male brings me the greatest joy, i seem to find myself holding myself back? Like, i am a male, but i am attracted to how i look as a girl? But at the same time it pisses me off because it's not who i am. I'm not sure what to do about this? I'm so confused.... I really want to transition so i can fully embrace who i am, instead of a lie i find myself living.