I have always struggled with self esteem, I have been known for feeling sorry for myself. I think that despite being encouraged and told things like "no one can love you if you can't love yourself" for a long while, I have just been too obstinate to change for the better. Well maybe at the age of 23 I am ready to try do a bit of that this year. Now I know that my SO loves me regardless, heck she wouldn't be my fiancee now if she didn't love me! But I don't feel I can be a better man to her unless I learn to just brake out of my shell a little bit.
It's not easy for my SO to ask how my day at work was and I continue to respond with a bad attitude or just trouble talking at all. When I want to talk about cding, I keep quiet, hoping for her to read my mind.
First step is to make some friends to talk to and maybe post some more so I can talk to you all. (It's not fair for my SO to be my only friend to let out about cding to, especially if she is still struggling with it herself).
So can I ask for the daunting task of you members that are so kind, please hold me accountable and make me talk! (or type actually)
Next step is to actually celebrate my birthday (next year maybe, baby steps)