I read many posts and seldom reply, but recently have been focused on whether there are other "women" on this site who are like me…if so, what do they do to cope, how do they satisfy their feminine side and desire to dress…
I am in awe of the various women who are able to dress full-time, present themselves in public without flaw, shop with their SO’s, work on their makeup, maintain a closet of shoes and manage their femininity with such grace and ability. They simply stun me and are such role models…I am jealous!
But, that’s not me. I’m big and tall and muscular, could never pass, and would require a lawnmower to remove all of the hair that covers my legs, arms, chest and fingers. I am married but do not have an agreeable spouse for this hobby/desire and I do not consider crossdressing a deal breaker in my marriage. But I have had private makeovers and photos, been once or twice out in public with other “women” and keep my collection of panties, bras, slips and nighties hidden but available for use when I can dress. Fortunately I am not a bit afraid to shop for clothing or makeup in male mode.
I love to dress, but also love many other things. I cope by dressing when I can, sometimes underdressing and doing those things that allow me to express my femme side…and it feels good. But it comes in ways that, at least to me, seem to be rejected by many others on this site…I have a feeling that for many crossdressing is an all or nothing proposition. Either you dress 24/7 or you are not really part of the sisterhood. While my aspirations may be to play NFL football and then put on a beautiful gown and dance the night away in the ballroom late into the night, neither will happen. Nor am I compelled to make either happen...I seem to be satisfied where I am...
Are there others like me, happy to do what we do, but who also recognize and accept the limitations? Who enjoy the fun of dressing, but do not dress daily, enjoy underdressing, but know they will never be JLaw or even one of the other beautiful women who post to this site? Are their others like me and if so, how do you cope with the physical and other limitations on your desire to dress and be feminine?