I guess it was bound to happen. Lately I had been indulging a little too much and had been more careless than usual with keeping my secret. I'll avoid the messy details and just say that it was a good thing and a bad thing. It was a good thing because I feel like me and her have a closer relationship than ever before. I mean, she now knows my darkest secret. It was a bad thing because now I can never do it again. And you all know how that turns out. Sure, it'll be fine for around a year, maybe 2, then it'll be back with a vengeance. What hurt me most about it all is that I like who I am and that part of me. I wish I could show her photos and talk about it without her brain malfunctioning, but she just can't get it. So I agreed to never do it again on grounds of breaking up/divorce, but I don't think it's possible. Does anybody think its possible that slowly and subliminally I can open her up to it? That maybe in a year she would be into it? Or is the lesson here that people never can change?