Howdy everyone,
Up until yesterday I had only shared my crossdressing addiction/lifestyle/personality with my VA psychologist in person. I see her after getting sick in the Middle East and she helps me deal with chronic pain from the military days. That experience was nerve wracking yet so freeing and fulfilling last year and it's led to some wonderful developments and growth sessions with her.
At the encouragement of my psych doctor, I shared Kristin with my Primary Care Dr at the VA yesterday. She thought I should get a hormone blood panel and a referral to an endocrinologist to see what my options might be within the VA system if I choose to pursue HRT. I've been seeing the Primary Care Dr for over 8 years and besides showing up with shaved legs, I don't think he'd of had a clue.
So about halfway through the appointment I let it out......I like to cross dress, I've been doing it on and off since 1993, dah dah dah.......oh, and I brought a powerpoint collage with 10 pics showing some of my different outfits just to show you I'm not blowing smoke.....would you like to see them I ask? This was very awkward for me since I'm very shy anyway but I'm glad I reached out.
His response......."If you were to walk past me on the street, I would try to get your attention and smile at you because you are very attractive. I'm a heterosexual but you are really attractive. I can't believe how feminine you look!" He knows that I'm an athlete and outdoors person with a military leadership background so this was quite a curve ball for him but he handled it very professionally. He mentioned he and I are about the same build.......5'9" and 160lbs........wonder if I got his dressing wheels turning?
That was not what I was expecting for sure! It's one thing to share pics online and seek style tips and makeup suggestions, but to have someone give me face to face feedback was pretty scary. It was such an uplifting session since I wasn't seeking out a compliment from him, I mainly wanted him to see how serious a part of my life dressing is and if he thought I was close to looking like a lady.
We ended up chatting about hormones, hair removal, sharing this part of me with my spouse and other topics. I was thankful and proud of his reaction seeing that he's there to serve vets and responded in a way to help me pursue my real self.
Just wanted to be a bit of encouragement for any of you that haven't shared with anyone. This was only my 2nd face to face share and has convinced me to keep moving forward with the real me
There are people in your circle that will support you and understand.......it won't be all peaches & cream but I'm seeing if we reach out, there is a support network.
This was one of the pics I shared with him in the collage.........it is one of my favorite casual outfits and one that I've worn out at night sneaking around
Originally Posted by Phylis Nicole Schuyler
