[SIZE=3]I'm all confused now. Not that i care about labels.....i would like to know where i fit in. (forum-wise)
So let me give you a break down.
I started feeling (i hate saying that because it's so hard to explain) female at a young age. I didn't start crossdressing until i was 12 i believe only because i was never left alone until that age.
I may have messed around playing if you know what i mean while dressed up but not for to long. Within a few months i was thinking "God please let me wake up as a girl" thing like many here have.
At age 17 i joined the army "to make a man out of me." Didn't work to well. I had alot of people saying "Your such a girl." Inside i loved the compliment but was afraid someone might figure me out. Especially being in the military it was an uncomfortable feeling. At age 24 i got married. I hate to say it but i don't really think i loved her. Getting out of the barracks and the "maybe this will make a man of me" feeling kicked in again.
After leaving the army and later getting divorced ("Deborah" had nothing to do with it) I found myself alone....BUT i got custody of our 3 children.
I would die before i gave her custody of my children. Think of the wicked step mother in Cinderella and you wouldn't be far off of my Ex.
So here i am...single parent and there is no way i will transition. As much as i'd like to my kids have been through enough and they love their "Dad."
God only knows what will happen in the future but i see myself as "Dad" for along time.
Thanks for reading if you made it this far.
P.S This has got to be the longest post i've ever made here lol.
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