Over the years I have had many thought about what drew me to crossdressing. I wonder if any of you girls identify with these ideas. I was small and thin as a boy raised with a lot of feminine influence in my life. Even into my late 20's I was often mistaken for a girl ( I grew my hair long after I got my first def leopard album, probably didn't help lol). I was not the tough guy or the sports guy or even the bad boy pot head guy. And had little luck with girls. So I often wondered if I started cding because it was a shorter distance from where I was to become a girl I was attracted too than is was to become the kind of guy who could get the girls I was attracted too? Later on in life I must have developed something that attracted woman. Because suddenly I had no trouble" getting the girl" as it were. In fact my SO in easily the most beautiful woman I have ever known. And now some times I wonder if she dressed the way I like ect. ( that would be like she used to btw so I'm not really reaching here) but since kids ect she still has the figure for it but for some reason think she's a mom now and can't dress like she used to ! ( even though tons of other mom dress as I wish she would dress and I'm not talking anything inappropriate or any thing like that ) but I wonder if again it's easier to just portray that woman myself. In reality I know I just love becoming a beautiful woman something's I don't know why , probably never will know why and frankly at this point why doesn't really matter a whole lot any more. But these are the crazy things I think of some times. Thanks girls for listening to my ramblings!
