It had been about a month and a half i was living the fem life. I wouldn't say full time as I wouldn't go out dressed but it would definitely blur the lines. It was a girly girly time, fully shaved, painting my nails everyday and letting it grow out long, sleeping in satin and lace nighties, moving around the house dressed et al. On the last day of this vacation I removed all the polish from my nails, cut my nails, had a haircut and I'm letting the hair on my legs grow back (yuck), I've started my push ups and well mostly being the man for my gf.
i realize and accept the fem side of me will never stop to cease but then life goes on and riding it with my boots on, is the man. That day when i took the haircut, clipped my nails in a way I was relieved too, I didn't have to be self conscious among the guys about the length or the shine and gloss on my nails, the subtle eye liner i would have on, the feminine styling of the hair etc. I did find my hands and toe nails looking very dull, I was so used to the long nails and clear varnish when out, it looked stubby and boring now.
Then there was the sexy lingerie, stockings, tights, heels, wig, a few dresses, tops, skirts, bras and panties what do I do with it? I didn't have a stitch of feminine clothing when I left, I couldn't possibly come back with an extra bag... I ultimately decided to discard it all. it hurt and I did feel bad about that but I do sleep better. I did cling on to one blue satin nightie.
This is my first post where I'm completely in drab, sucks but I still am Sonia somewhere, somewhat and sometimes.