Well, the time has come. My first outing will be this coming Saturday to a social group that stems from somebody I met here. This will be my first time out fully en femme, around other people fully en femme, aside from trying on outfits with my GF without makeup.
I'm a nervous wreck, can't decide on an outfit, going crazy trying to figure out when to start my routines on how to get ready...wishing I had Sunday off so I could enjoy it longer. Nervous about applying makeup for the first time...since because of my living situation I can't readily experiment.
This night represents a culmination of years of evolving. It's also a dress rehearsal...pardon the pun, for my first outing with my GF. It feels like there is a lot of weight on my shoulders...and nobody put it there but me. But I am so utterly excited, despite my nerves. I cannot wait to see Caden emerge for the first time. This is going to be amazing.
