Hey everyone,
I've been out of touch lately. Not been having a good week at all. To top it all off, my GF just broke up with me because she can't deal with the whole CDing thing.
I originally told her I liked to CD back in December, she thought it was awesome and cool and fun and exciting. She wanted to embrace it, not just tolerate it. And she made comments about our future together (like if we were to get a house together we would need a HUGE closet for our shoes, etc etc). I thought I was in the clear, I thought I found the one. I was so happy to share this part of my life with someone.
Turns out she was really hesitant, lost all emotional intimacy for me, tried to force herself to love it and accept it, but in the end just couldnt deal with that being something she wanted to live with. Took 4 months but she finally told me it wasnt for her.
Im crushed, absolutely crushed. The worst part is knowing I could go through this exact same thing with every other girl I date. I know this is something most, if not all, of you have dealt with. But it feels so much worse when I thought she was the one girl that was for me and would accept it no matter what. Sorry for basically crying to all of you, I dont know what to do. I wish this was something you could teach acceptance for. I wish it didnt affect some people the way it does.
~Erica