Perhaps the guilt has faded away. No more SO to worry about. I finally have my own place. The barriers are fading away...I am free to be Myself!
But I am scared to fully embrace this "part" of myself, which seems to me more than just a "part", especially the more I let myself..... be myself...
If I take this path, I sense that I am doomed to "perpetual failure and isolation"....
Why is it that the freer I am, the more I seem to be sinking into an unknowable future????