My first time out as Kelly

[Karren J]

I just got home from my first time out dressed pretty. I was in Disneyland and my superb wife and I went to go see a movie. We got tickets for a 7 o'clock show but I just couldn't do it, I was wound up like a spring and I think I might have exploded. After settling down a bit we went for an 8:30 screening. I have dressed countless times but this one made me nervous as never before did I know that I would be on display.

Stepping out of the hotel room was the worst part. I've never felt that kind of fear; it was palatable and almost painful in my chest. I know that it was and in my head and no one really cares but in the moment it feels real.

We walked to the park from the hotel room and through the crowd to downtown Disney, the timing was good as it was only crowded not elbow to elbow. Things got easier inside me when, as everybody on this forum has said 99% of the people didn't notice or care. When we walked the length of downtown Disney to the theater I heard at least one giggle, which I expected to happen with all the teenage girls around but nobody chased me laughing and pointing as I feared.

At the theater we found out that the movie wasn't playing at 8:30 until tomorrow! With no other plans and frayed nerves we went back. I saw recognition in at least a few sets of eyes but given the thousand + people I passed I think it went well.

I did an internal debriefing in the hotel and came up with a few points to fix:

- As my wife has said my face isn’t quite "right" I've since done some mirror assessments and I think that nothing short of surgery will correct my square jaw but if I work on dark and light blush I might improve the way my cheeks look to get a more feminine appearance. This combined with some weight loss and of course make up practice is the best I can think to do.

- I need to improve my walk, smaller steps more onto the centreline and swing my arms from the elbow not the shoulder.

- Confidence. I was pretty good but definitely was more eyes down than eyes forward

- Boobs! As the wife said after, (why after!?!?) I had them a bit too high to look quite right. for the rest of the trip I was looking at chests purely for research purposes and the average breast seems to end about 1" up to level with a 90 degree bent arm, I was definitely too high. Lesson learned.

I can't do much about my body shape as it is a rectangle but I will drop some weight, even a minor improvement will be welcome.

All in all I'm glad I did it, I'm ready for more as being dressed pretty feels right and good. When I got past the internal drama it felt natural to be Kelly, if you've never done it words cannot describe the sensation of walking outside in a skirt. It's heaven. On the plus side I caught a few guys checking out my chest! At least I passed to some of them. I didn't get any pictures out and about as we forgot the camera in the room but here one from afterward.