My wife and I were invited to ride on a float at Long Beach Pride. I know I should, but I can't! I should stand proud and do my part to ensure we have a future. My wife very much wants to participate. While I do feel it's my life and I don't have a responsibility to be the postor child for trans rights, what kind of person hides and enjoys the rewards that others have worked for.
I am much farther out of the closet than I ever wanted to be. Both of my grown children know, we go out to club events regularly, and all I wanted was to hide in my room and wear a skirt.
I don't know if the families of my residents would pull them from our care if they saw me on the 6:00 news or not. The possibilty leaves me terrified. State licensing and the other beaurocracy we deal with are mandated by law to not discriminate but let's be honest with ourselves... There are lots of ways around that.
In the end, though I feel lower than low, I will give in to my fears. I will not participate in the parade. I will cower in my closet and leech off of those braver than I
I'm sorry!
Rita