Today I turned 49. It has been the toughest and best year of my life at the same time. Thanks so much for everyone's support here. This forum lead me to my great friends who have helped me along my path.
I know now what I am and why it has been tough. I am struggling but I feel authentic! I am taking baby steps to prepare for what may lie ahead. I had my first teeth cleaning yesterday in many years. I had neglected my teeth during my addicted years and was ashamed to go to the dentist. It was painful as you can imagine after all those years of neglect. I kept telling myself these were steps to getting to be me. I will soon begin laser hair removal.
I am so blessed to even see 49 after the life I have lived. I hope to face the next period of my life with courage and compassion!
Suzanne