December last year I told the wife big changes were coming for Jackie, she was not happy. In January I posted all my plans of progression here on this forum. Many of you warned me to go slow. In January I started under dressing more, shopping more (grab and buy type) and even went in public under dressed. the further I went the more the wife pulled away.
The second Friday of February Both my Dad and mother in-law went into the hospital. Of course two different hospitals 30 miles apart. From February till June my mother in-law was between hospitals and rehab centers not once making it to her home. In June the doc's finally got the meds right and she is home doing wonderful! My dad moved in with the wife and I in February and stayed with us until he passed in June. This was the most difficult and most wonderful time of my life.
There still has not been much time for Jackie. In this 5 month time frame Jackie has found time here and there to get more comfortable shopping. (Not the grab and buy type). I have bought two very nice dresses, a skirt and two blouses! With no privacy to wear them. Six siblings, 18 grandchildren, aunts, uncles and friends in and out of the house constantly. I also bought a peach cammi and shorts that I was to use as my pajama's, the wife told me she would never reach for me in the middle of the night if I were to wear this. OUCH.(((
Two weeks ago the wife was to be gone from 10 am till 12 am on a Saturday.(this never happens) and did I have plans!!!
A couple hours at the office, shopping for clothing and makeup. Then the rest of the day en femme!!!!!! with the whole house to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I through my back out and ended up on the floor with ice and doing my stretches all day. I did put on my new pj's. Later in the evening I was feeling better and put on a dress, under garments and my heels. Bad idea heels and a bad back so I just sat on the couch watching TV all dressed up occasionally changing dresses, earrings and shoes (no makeup). It was so relaxing first time in months I felt zero pressure. I was able to totally let go of everything.
I have been on the forum when I could find the time. I have posted very little because I just had nothing to say.
Now I sit here not looking for pity just sharing and thinking out loud.
I now know Jackie is a big part of me and will always be. I know she does not have to be dressed to be prevalent, but will be when she can. I know she will slowly progress when the situation allows.
Since January Jackie has not completed any of her promises however she has grown far more than I could have planned.
THANK YOU for being here for me!